Yesterday was not a super day for me, so I was really looking forward to driving to the barn to walk Simon and hack Winston, a school horse my trainer wants me to work with some. Instead of relaxation, I got the continuing of the bad day.
As soon as I had changed from my work clothes to my riding clothes, a lesson student pulled the horse I was supposed to ride into the cross ties for her lesson. I was peeved. I really shouldn’t have been peeved because the trainer/owner asked me to ride the horse, but I know good and well there’s no formal schedule. It’s not the lesson kid’s fault, because another trainer told her to go get him. But after driving 45 minutes in traffic after a bad day at work and then not getting to have a relaxing ride, I was peeved.
Then I went to go get Simon to hand walk him, and he was as ornery and anxious as ever. Even before I started walking him, I became filled with a huge sense of dread. The farrier came that day, and the farm hand (who I have a stressed relationship with at the best of times) started laying into me about how awful Simon was for the farrier. Ok great, but what can I do about it? Not a damn thing.
Then I went to walk him, and while I was hoping for this…
Conclusion? I walked him the required 5 minutes and then left the barn as quickly as possible fighting back tears.
I know I’m too emotional about this, and I know he’s not turning into a bad horse and this is normal behavior but I can’t shake all this worry and emotion that my horse is miserable and getting more miserable as time goes on. We have a great barn with great people, but it’s not an ideal situation for stall rest.
Before my meltdown, I spoke with my friend and dressage trainer who comes to our barn to teach dressage lessons, and she gave me some good advice. We’re going to cut back his grain, and she said just to Ace him before I walk him every day. So I called the vet this morning and ordered a bottle of Ace, as well as talked to her about ulcer treatment options. Also going to try and get him fed more hay throughout the day, because right now I’m pretty sure he’s only thrown 2-3 flakes morning and evening… and that’s not enough.
I know he will be ok, and I know turning him out right now is not the right answer but I am sure feeling really, really down about all this.