I would generally describe myself as a fairly confident person. I’m not perfect, but I have a lot going for me. I don’t think I’m ugly and I don’t mind meeting new people. For the most part, I can put my best foot forward and tackle challenges.
My Achilles heel if you will, is my weight. When I see myself in pictures, half the time I crumble inside and think really poorly of myself. This is something I’ve been working on for years, because deep down I know that it’s not a mark of who I am as a person. Still, not an easy thing to deal with especially when I know it’s my fault.
Because of this, I have always waited to get nice pictures done of me and any of my horses in the past. I always thought, “Oh I’m going to lose a bunch of weight and THEN I will look good enough for nice pictures,” or “I’m too heavy now there’s no way the shots will look good.” It’s a self defeating thought process, but it’s how I’ve been living my life.
I’m not sure what changed – maybe my overall strive to love myself wholly, but recently I decided that however I looked now was just fine. We don’t know what can happen. If I want something as simple as nice pictures, I should make that happen while my horse is sound my husband is healthy and we’re all loving each other.
So I called out Anneke Paterson, and that’s what we did.
We got really nice photos of my little equine family, and I love them.
I’m not perfect and plastic like the models in equestrian catalogs (although I do admit I smoothed out a few lumps and bumps in Photoshop), but I’m me. That’s good enough!
The reason for all my touchy feelyness is not to put some kind of sob story behind these pictures or to look for compliments or sympathy. Don’t need that. What I am saying is that if you’ve felt like me, don’t wait to do stuff. Just do it. It’s cliche, but carpe diem. Life is too short to sit around waiting for stuff just because you may or may not be thinner or better or prettier or whatever in the future!
P.S. – There are a million (okay, that’s a slight exaggeration) photos from the shoot that I love. These are some of my favorites but I’ll be sharing more around the blog periodically. Also next week I’ll write some tips for surviving a photoshoot with your horse!