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Some Final Pages to Simon’s Chapter

Some Final Pages to Simon’s Chapter

I’m more aware than I’d like to be about how time can heal some wounds. For the past month or so, life has seemed quite a bit less hopeless as I try to heal from losing Simon. It’s reassuring, because immediately after he died I wasn’t sure if it ever would again. I’m glad I was wrong. Of course the other side of grieving and healing that I’m also hyper aware of, is how refusing to let go of your…

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Life Without Nerd Horse

Life Without Nerd Horse

I went to the barn today. I thought it would be terrible, I really did. I was supposed to go a week ago for the barn holiday party and yearly awards, but I couldn’t bring myself to face his empty stall when everyone was drinking and having a good time. So I sent my trainer my regrets, and put off going back until I felt like I couldn’t put it off anymore. When Simon first died, things were pretty bleak…

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Simon

Simon

I wanted to live my entire life and never have to write this post, but the best horse I’ve ever had died on early in the morning on December 20th. While I was 2,000 miles away visiting family in Mississippi, he started colicing. When he didn’t come around quickly at the barn, my trainer and I agreed he should go to the clinic. There the original prognosis was good, and I want to bed at midnight my time concerned but…

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Nerd Horse 3.0

Nerd Horse 3.0

My last update sharing Eliot’s cancer and my fears about letting him go was a bit of a downer. In case you’re worried, let me get to the punchline early: Simon is doing fabulous. I got him insured, so I didn’t have to worry about the “can I afford colic surgery?” question. When his weight dipped, I put him on not one but two high end feeds. First we tried Ranitidine to treat his ulcers. After we doubled the dosage and…

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Nobody Likes a Puny Nerd Horse

Nobody Likes a Puny Nerd Horse

Really for almost all of 2016 and 2017, Simon was the most reliable creature on the planet. I showed up to the barn. He whinnied at me. His legs were cold and tight. For our ride, he’d be fussy in downward transitions but otherwise pretty good. I’d put him back up. The end. The most exciting he’d get was an occasional bit of gas, where he’d look sad but immediately perk up after a dose of banamine. That happened maybe…

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Are Horse (Blogger) Friends the Best Friends?

Are Horse (Blogger) Friends the Best Friends?

If horse blogger friends aren’t the best kind of friends to have, they’re at least in the top 5. At least that’s how I felt after equestrian blogger extraordinaire, L Williams, came to see me last week. Though I’m blessed to have some awesome writing friends that I’ve made through my MFA program, I have to admit that I really miss going catching up on the latest barn drama over margaritas or analyzing everything horsey with my barn friends back…

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New Year, New Simon

New Year, New Simon

I was a little vague about how Simon was doing before I left for winter break, but the short answer is – not good. Our rides got progressively worse. I would get on, start fighting with him immediately and end up having to get off after about fifteen minutes of trying to walk/trot/canter. It’s not that he was unsafe or dangerous, but I was getting angry at him… and when I get angry, I make terrible decisions with my riding. I…

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From Feeling Blue to Practically Plaid

From Feeling Blue to Practically Plaid

First off, thanks everyone for all the wonderful comments and suggestions about Simon. After I wrote that post, things actually took a turn for the worse and he showed up lame with a fat leg. Naturally, I decided he blew his suspensory and called the vet… planning his retirement while I waited for a diagnosis. After two days of cold hosing + mud wrapping, the minor amount of swelling originally present went way down. Today the vet came out, and told…

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How to Have a Horse in Grad School in 10 Easy Steps

How to Have a Horse in Grad School in 10 Easy Steps

Are you foolish enough to move your horse across the country to join you during grad school, a time that’s full of anxiety and oftentimes responsible for bringing out the worst of your personality? Then this post is for you! 1. Pick a state where it’s impossible to find a boarding situation similar to what he’s been used to for 11.5 years.  Over ten hours of turnout? A predominant diet of grain? How about a life full of equine friends…

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Nerd Horse’s CA Digs

Nerd Horse’s CA Digs

In other words, a barn tour. Simon has been a California resident for almost a month now. I’ve spent months worrying about how he would do here with the drastic life change, and he’s surpassed my expectations like he usually does! After searching several barns, I ended up at a workmanlike hunter/jumper facility that mostly shows on the local level. Though not fancy and over the top, it runs like a well oiled machine. There is a head trainer (more…

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Blogger Friends and an Existential Crisis and Simon

Blogger Friends and an Existential Crisis and Simon

Two great things happened in the last seven days, and they sandwich the end (hopefully) of my adjustment to grad school depression that’s been lingering since I started school. After a week of questioning all my life choices, crying in my professor’s office and wondering if I could ever be successful as a writer, I decided to give myself a break for the weekend and be as social as possible. One of those social events was heading to Del Mar…

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Somebody Has Some Big News

Somebody Has Some Big News

I know I’ve already shared a lot of big news, but this is probably even more important than all that. More important than me moving to California. More important than graduate school. Guys. GUYS! GUYSOMGGGGGUYSSSS!!! Simon — My beloved, nerd horse… IS DOING LEAD CHANGES! Now, he’s always done some lead changes. My trainer would get the occasional clean change when she asked, but it was never consistent. On course, Simon would do a clean change when he really needed to…

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