This summer I saw a lot of other bloggers check in with their yearly goals. When I read those posts I pretty much thought, “Must be nice for SOMEONE to achieve goals this year!”
Yeah, yeah yeah… I can be snippy in my mind.
At first I was going to ignore my goals entirely and scratch the year off as an epic failure. As shitty years goes, it would be hard to top 2015 for me (although I’m sure you can universe… don’t read that comment as a dare).
Instead of giving in, I’m going to address them today and modify them. The year is almost up, but every day I get through is one step closer to “a new normal” – a phrase I both hate and love. Honestly, my overall life outlook and psyche has changed so much since Tim died I don’t think it’d be very authentic for me to ever create goals in the same way. Of course I still have Simon and riding/training/showing is something I love, but I’d be lying if I said it was just as important as it was before… it’s not.
Updated 2015 Equestrian Goals
Compete in a hunter division without beating myself up about missed distances/changes– This happened. Check. Get really good at counting strides in-between fences (aka remember to do so) and know how many I did at any given time– Currently don’t care Do all the high options in a hunter derby– Didn’t happen. Don’t care.
- Do not overface myself at a horse show – stay relaxed and calm! – This is a lifelong goal
- Be able to jump a course on Simon bridleless – Still want to do this. Going to make it a priority when he’s jumping again
Post the trot with no stirrups at least once a week– Don’t care at the moment
- Figure out a way to ride & lesson with my new financial landscape
- Canter bareback
My main goal this year was to have fun at every horse show, and I’ve achieved that. Not sure what showing is going to look like in the future, but fun absolutely needs to stay at the top of the goals list because I can’t afford to go to a show and be miserable!
Goals for Simon
- Reliably get leads over fences
- Do lateral work at the trot with no anxiety
- Do complicated things with canter work while keeping anxiety low
Get saddle fit confirmed/figured out/helped– Dislike my saddle. Getting a new one eventually. Stay sound– Negative
Simon’s goals are pretty good. His flatwork has come a long way, but we could still stand to work on the things I have listed above so they will stay. They’ll stay, but I can assure you I’m not losing sleep over them.
Goals for Me
Keep credit card debt at $0 and build savings– This was doing good until I inherited a fleet of vehicles to keep up Follow a budget every month– Lolz self, you’re hilarious Re-do guest bedroom into a more functional office space– We actually did that.. then I dismantled everything to move Print my photography so I can enjoy it more in my house– Actually did this Dress better– Am doing this currently, because it’s easier to fake that you’re doing okay and functioning if you have a cute top and makeup on (ask me how I know) Get my anxiety under control– Nothing cures anxiety by seeing your worst fears in front of your very eyes
I actually did really well on my personal goals for the 1st half of the year until my entire life fell apart. Last month, I set a very ambitious goal for myself with a strict timeline… and then promptly realized my poor battered brain is not strong enough to handle such a challenge right now. I do want to work towards this though, and work towards getting my life back together. With that in mind, here are my personal goals for the rest of the year.
Regroup Personal Goals
- Read as much as possible. Any book at any speed, but reading needs to be a part of my daily life.
- More meaningful blog posts. Less filler and gibberish
- Be kinder to myself
- Write. Write blogs or stories or things no one will read, but write.
- Be comfortable with my own crazy.
For whatever reason, the only goals I care about in life right now are those regroup personal goals, but I’ll keep the other’s up for posterity’s sake. Maybe one day I’ll go back to being super concerned about lead changes, but that day is not today. Tomorrow isn’t looking good either.